Virgo who lit the heart of mental patients

What should i do?

2005-12-03T05:33:00.000-08:00

On Saturday, i received an email from smu. They notified me that i am selected to take part in the advanced placement in SMU. I was shocked. Really shocked. I did not know what to do. I recalled that i was late for the interview by 1 hour. During the interview, i even asked the interviewer what the hell is accounting. The interviewers seemed so pissed off by my question. They must be asking themselves," THis stupid brat chose to take part in SMU and he does not know what accounting is!"After the interview, i was really disappointed. Not because i thought i could not get into SMU, but because of the interview. I was really unhappy with my performance during the interview. But on the other hand, i felt relieved that i could be eliminated. I have no interest in accounting anyway. It sounds contradicting. I went for the interview because i just wanted to test myself whether i could react well in such interviews. This is to prepare myself for similar interviews in future.

Outcome-I was chosen.13 weeks of lessons every Saturday starting from 7 Jan.9am to 12pm.My mind went blank the moment i saw the email. I realli do not noe how i am chosen. Was it because i said i could spend a min of 7 hrs on this? Was it because i said i m the kind who has high expectations for myself? Was it because i said i would not give up no matter how difficult the subject is? Was it because i said that i love challenges?Or was it because i said that the lessons in SmU is full of dynamics and is livening? But the question on what is accountancy should kill all these credits!!!!!The fact that i was late for 1 hr should piss them off!!! Why am i still chosen?

Should I accept or not? If i accept, i would have to sacrifice my time for this. i would have less time to cope with my S paper and gp.I am doubtful that i would go to accounting and even SMU in future. I want to go into psychology. But the plus points are that i could experience university life and immerse myself in an lively atmosphere.I could also put that in my portfolio. This allows me to get a scholarship easily.

If i dont accept, i have more time for S paper and gp. I could escape from the torture of studying something i dont like at all. But...But no more experience and no credit in my portfolio.Between dreams and reality, which side should i lean onto? I really dont know....Really...

2005-11-20T05:21:00.000-08:00

jing xiang:booooo

2005-11-20T05:20:00.001-08:00

Pat,u r so lucky

2005-11-20T05:20:00.000-08:00

zhenjie:Eeteng, dont act cool?

2005-11-20T05:19:00.002-08:00

again!

2005-11-20T05:19:00.001-08:00

haha

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wee kian, dont beat me...

2005-11-20T05:18:00.001-08:00

Jacq:HELP!!!

2005-11-20T05:18:00.000-08:00

Pat:i m surrounded by shuai ge!!!

2005-11-20T05:17:00.002-08:00

5 flowers!!

2005-11-20T05:17:00.001-08:00

ghost!!!!!

2005-11-20T05:17:00.000-08:00

who more shuai???

2005-11-20T05:16:00.002-08:00

do i look cool?

2005-11-20T05:16:00.001-08:00

na mo or mi tuo fo......

2005-11-20T05:16:00.000-08:00

spot me!!!

2005-11-20T05:15:00.001-08:00

delicious!!!

2005-11-20T05:15:00.000-08:00

still a long nite away

2005-11-20T05:14:00.000-08:00

cool!!!!!!!!!1

2005-11-20T05:08:00.000-08:00

stunned!

2005-11-20T05:07:00.001-08:00

cool?

2005-11-20T05:07:00.000-08:00

siannnnn!!!1

2005-11-20T05:06:00.000-08:00

nature walk!!!

2005-11-20T04:21:00.000-08:00

Yehhhhhh......holiday finally coming.....by right, our holiday should start 2weeks ago loh...but PW and other school stuffs have caused us to realli start our holiday today...

1 week ago,me and my secondary school friends went to sentosa...its very fun....jx lost his wallet and kept thinking that we played a prank on him....me, pat and jx played water at a nearby fountain..i was bullied by a bunch of kids!!!Veri sad rite...den at nite, we went to musical fountain...WOOOO!the effects was astonishing!haha....me, pat, chee kong, choon kiat and gare rern stayed overnite....i kai concert under the moon and besides the sea leh...haha....sigh...want to participate in xiao yuan superstar...but too busy....sigh...den we wandered to the palawan beach and saw a couple having sex in the car....haha.....we were all stunned by the actions...haha....we could oli see the shadow...so pat was there, deciphering the possible actions to us...WAO...Pat...u r realli "observant"...

On wed, thurs and fri, pamela,weilin,me,jiayang,jasper and merlissa went to suntec city to be volunteers for a regional conference.It was damn fun!!haha....we benefitted a lot from the conference...we have corp lots of goodies,met lots of interesting pple and friends and most importantly, we have good food!!We had 2 tea breaks and 1 luxurious lunch everyday...the lunch alone cost more than $30! On the second day, we even attended a dinner at Mandarin Hotel worth $100!Wao....they were all free....we had realli good times there.....but all good tinks have to come to an end....weep......i realli made many friends there....one is called xiao keng and she was really very patient....she studied psychology at melboune university....thus i kept asking her qns loh...haha......she oso quie chio....haha

2005-11-03T04:09:00.000-08:00

November!2 months have gone since i last entered the entry...i guessed i too lazy bah..anyway...min yuan!i finally entered my blog liao.haha..

Firstly,lets talk abt my promos. I got an ABBB for my 4As and....D7 to be exact for my gp...I was very disappointed with this kind of results-till now. i tried toconvinced myself that tis is quite good compared to others. But it is useless. I just could not convince myself. I guessed my expectations for myself is really way too high. But I could not help it. This is me. I dont wish to be someone who just got the bare minimum, although i always say that to fu yan other people. I thought i have changed . But i realised i have not. I am still a perfectionist.Next year, i would make a comeback...i will!

Now,i just want to let out everything here....This holidae suxxxxxxxx!Its like no holidae at all. I got to work, ogl workshop, meeting to organise children's programme, regional conference..bla bla bla...AND TONNES OF HOMEWORK!Can i cope? This is the question i always ask myself. ANd the answer i always gave myself is-yes. But is it really true? I hope so. And the problem with me is that i like to keep myself busy...haha...sounds eccentric..but i just dont likt to be sian nang...i want to be busy and stressed....haha....make myself significant...hehe...

JAy's new album out!November's Chopin....Its so so so so cool....Every song in it is so nice...really nice....my fav is ye qu and fa ru xue...hmmm..i'm learning these two songs now...i will sing it well!trust me!!!!!!

2005-07-16T06:10:00.000-07:00

This week is quite a good week 4 me....Haha...My physics got an A...haha....A 78...haha....Its a consolation prize 4 me...,4 getting a D 4 my maths....haha...Then i got a pass 4 my GP...Although i got oli a 23....not bad though....But something saddens me....Nobody in my family ask me about my results...its lik they dont care....SO I OSO DONT CARE LOH!They oli care about money and our family affairs....So indifferent to wat happened in school....

Everibody kept trying to guess of who exactly did i like....Haha....I tink they wont guess it lah...I wont show out de...haha.....let god decide when he would allow me to disclose this secret...haha

2005-07-09T05:55:00.000-07:00

This week is a week full of surprises and shocks...I received my chem,maths and chinese...so sad...yah,i got B 4 my chem and A1 for my chinese...But its most saddening when i got my maths.I got a D!A idiotic D...I cant believe it...really cant...in the past,ifeel that getting A is no challenge 4 me...But now?I got a D!Even though many people scored worse than me,i stil cant believe tis....I thought i would at least get a C....I never imagines that i will have a D 4 my MATHS!To relieve all my anger and frustrations,i went to the piano in the audi and bang it...Its so thrilling...haha...i released all my anger by playing the piano....haha....Jasper then played twinkle twinkle little star....haha....It sorts of cheer me up...haha

"she" knew that i lik sombody liao...But she did not know that she is the one...haha....Although i would lik her to know...but i jus dont hab the courage...haha...so i hopw that she will find out on her own...haha....god bless ME!

exams over!

2005-06-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

Finally exams r over....i had never experienced such an exam period before....aalthough it is only 4 days.....but i seems longer than my secondary school paper....Sux is the oli word tat i can say....the papers r fucking diificult....hai.....except chinese,GP and physics,i cant seem to complete any of the papers.....Econs is the paper tat i really feel veri gek sim....i knew wat to write and yet i didnt hav the time to write....wat is the world coming to?I tink i m going to flunk my econs.....maybe my expectations 4 myself is too high....but virgo pple r lik tat....sign....haha...

during the exam period,me,Ser kun, Kah hwee and min yuen had the mood to play bridge..haha....its fun however..haha...

During tat exam,i didn talk to "her"...so sad....i wanted to talk to "her" but she didn seem to notice my presence...so i didn take the initiative.....so depressing....but after the exam,i mus not let tis happen again......

initial d

2005-06-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

haha....yesterday,i watched initial d!cool movie...jay chou is so cool!haha....haha...and he is so fair...haha....now i quite happy tat at least my body a little darker than his...haha...

And his father.....Quite a good actor....haha....manage to act a drunkard well...haha....i remembered a word tat he said....."wo you shuo guo wo er zhi shi zhen chang mah"....haha....i did not noe why i remembered this sentence...haha...

Edison Chen is quite a zuai person...i would love to bash him up...no wonder when he came to singapore,nobody gave a damn abt him...

The actor who acted as Jay Chou's gilfriend is quite chio...hsaha....too bad her image was spoilt in the movie...-she acted as a whore....haha

2005-06-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday we went to botanic garden...haha...the place is veri nice and greeny.But,god seemed 2 be playing a fool on us....it rained!

The children had to draw some shits and they were given 1 hr...haha...these brats did not show any interest....They finished it within 10mins and jus ran all abt....One boy started to use his cap to beat me...WTF!i tried to tell him not to do it but they did not listen...In the end,i shouted at them and they were so scared tat they stopped haha...LAO HU BU FA WEI DANG WO SHI BING MAO!These brats were scolded by the teacher as a result...We oso played games tat me,pam,Jai yang and crystal thought of...hahaa..Its quite fun...

Then after returning to the centre and had lunch,me n Pam went bac to aj...hmmm....:)We forgot to wrap Kah Hwee present up...so we went to buy the wrapper..but we found out there is no scorch tape....haha...we went around to search leh....Quite fun though...haha...on the mrt,the tape could not stick anymore..haha...Pam said tat we could search in the mrt....i gambled wif her tat she would not find it.But the moment i turned my head,somebody offered to us....SO DRAMATIC...haha...Most interesting saga in the day!

thank u min yuan

2005-06-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

i forgot to thank min yuan for accompanying us to board the mrt...haha.
Thankkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk u!
*i was forced...haha

2005-06-12T21:42:00.000-07:00

jay chou!

zoo yesterday

2005-06-11T21:37:00.001-07:00

Haha...yesterday we went to the zoo!Wif me,Kah hwee, yun hui and pam,we went wif a gp of children from daybreak to the zoo....These pple were so mischievous!I even got "molested" by a boy...Hahah...so sadd........

When we got to the zoo...it was qutie boring at first...we just went to see some animals and some shows....BORING!Then,after eating lunch which was KFC,the fun part came...wif my clothes on,i went into the children'spool to play wif the water wif the children...HAha..it was so fun!i even got surrounded by a gp of gils who kept trying to pull me into the water!Then some children i did not noe oso started coming in and kept splashing water onto me....me vs abt 10 children...hahaz...fun!Then, i coerced some gils to pull pam into the water...haha...they did!i joined them in pulling Pam into the water!She ended up in the water,drenched....i finally found somebody to join me...Haha...i did not want to be in the water anymore but the children kept pulling me...i tried to coerced them into pullin Kah Hwee,Yun Hui and Pam into the water,but to no avail...hmmm....i ended up in the water in the end...Hsaha...

zoo yesterday

2005-06-11T21:37:00.000-07:00

2005-06-11T06:14:00.000-07:00

me and macdonald...

2005-06-07T06:30:00.000-07:00

today is a damn hectic day....sign we went to do pw at Raffles place and we hav to make the working pple there to do surveys 4 us...they Fuck...haha...we have to beg them to do it!I oso have to get scloded by one scumbag...sux!But we have to bear wif them..haha....We finally finshed our begging after one hr and we went to burger king to collate them and propose fitness programmes 4 these scumbags...haha....our gp hav a mini argument...but luckily no quarrels....our gp WAN SUI!HAaaaaAt 5 we finished the whole tink and we went home while lay koon continued to wait 4 her friend....Wat a loyal friend!

Camp Saga

2005-06-04T21:55:00.000-07:00

Finally returned from Delta Ex...haha...Watttttttt a slack camp...:>
At the first day,in the mrt while going to sch,i met jason...haha...he asked me abt the going ons in East Coast on mon...Then,he told me that he wil be going 4 band camp rite after Delta Ex...HAha...Jason...jia you lehhh....mus survive them...

Then,upon reaching sch,we assembled at the hall and i was the first in the gp to reach...haha...sonn,the ics brought us to our bunks....then we were asked to go to Lt 5 4 conflict management...haha...the speaker was damn good....how i wished i were him...haha

After surviving 3 hrs of the talk,my gp mu n other gps went to play leadership games...thru them,i noe of my gp members better and we quickly bonded together...haha...the games were damn fun and i enjoyed them...haha

it was 5pm liao n we went to eat dinner...the food was freaking fucking sucky...RUBBISH FOOD!

the remaining days were so slack tat it feels lik home...

Next day,we had our PTs in the morning ...it was soooooooo slackkk...then we had our breakfast and after bathing we set off 4 e agencies...haha..we went to centre 4 fathering...it was soooo small...
Then we had our break at a coffeeshop,eating roti prata...i ate 5!haha...everibody was so shocked...After the interview finished,we went to guang wu's house...it was so big and nice tat i started to be envious of him...haha...we slacked at his house and then started wroting the proposal at 3...soon,we ate pizza at his house and left...Its quite surprising tat we can slack at somebody's house and eat pizza during a camp!

The third day,we oso have our PTs in the morning...n breakfast....then,after we bathed,we proceeded to continue the proposal 4 service learning...after presenting the proposal to the gps,the teacher said,"veri challenging..."after packing our bags,we went to LT4 4 the installation ceremony...haha...finally....we tot we had to clean up the room...but to our amazement,we did not nedd...wat a slack camppppp...!Soon,our gp went to cartel in J8 except Eleanor..Haha..i said i did not have money and Xavier offered to lend me...$10!..shitt...

While going home,i suddenly wanted to shit...thus,upon reaching the mrt station,i went to lot one....after coming out,imet jaqueline n her gang...we chatted 4 30mins n then went home....my overall comment 4 the camp:WAT A SLACK CAMP!

2005-06-04T21:51:00.000-07:00

me n zhen yin in byd day...

2005-06-04T21:37:00.001-07:00

couple suits!

2005-06-04T21:37:00.000-07:00

jay chou acting cool...haha

2005-06-04T21:36:00.002-07:00

min yuen n jah hwee..

2005-06-04T21:36:00.001-07:00

three beauties...ahah

2005-06-04T21:36:00.000-07:00

Jay Chou playing cards

2005-06-04T21:35:00.002-07:00

Dear Diary...

2005-06-04T21:35:00.001-07:00

So Tired...

2005-06-04T21:35:00.000-07:00

M i cool?

2005-06-04T21:34:00.001-07:00

cool pose!Ser Kun!

2005-06-04T21:34:00.000-07:00

bright moon!

2005-06-04T21:33:00.001-07:00

fire in east coast!

2005-06-04T21:33:00.000-07:00

morning scenery

2005-06-04T13:18:00.000-07:00

2005-06-04T06:11:00.000-07:00

pics at East Coast

East Coast saga

2005-06-01T14:45:00.000-07:00

yo......finally i can get to write again...haha....its quite strange but im writing oli now when my east coast saga took place on mon...haha...well...on mon,i went to east coast wif my class 24-05!For my teacher,or ex-teacher rather,Mr ridzuan's birthday party....we went there at abt 6pm...by shuttle bus andwhen we reached there,jerica wa there waiting already..haha...she was damn earlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!Then we went to Mr ridzuan's chalet n we saw 4 guys lying on the bed playing risk....haha...they werre mr ridzuan's friends....then,after eating while watching tong xing yuan,we saw other classes arriving...one of my frinds was Kien Yong!haha....he is one of the friends i have made in the delta ex...haha.....then at 8pm,the celebrations started.....Mr ridzuan blowed the candles and then said some speeches tat he prepared....haha...its so damn long........but quite touching.....haha....the after reading som parts tat concerned his mum,his mum was so touched tat she went out to hug him....haha....SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOO touching......then AFTER the speech ended,he went on to take som photos wif the diff classes......our class is the last class to take the pic wif him...haha....we had some weird postures...haha.....the pics haven arrived yet soi cant show....haha.....then at abt 10pm,everi body went home except our class.....so,the chalet is ourssssssssssssssssssssssssss!haha.....we went in n hop onto the bed n xiang souuu.....haha......at abt 10.30,we went out to kan haiii.....its veri nice....i played jay chou's songs n the atmosphere is so nice....the sound of the sea n the sea complement so well tat i actually tel shu ying to clse her eyes wif me and enjoy the atmosphere wif me...haha.....so romanticccccccccccccccccccc!!!!!!!haha.....Shu ying,dont misunderstand me...haha......Ser Kun And Kah hwee came later n joined us wif the others.....then after a while,pMELA and her com went to the toilet and nvr came back againnnnnnnn.................we left at abt 11 pmto go n eat....but,in the end,we went back to the chalet again.....i dont noe why.....haha.......we stayed in the room 4 1-2 hrs,playing bridge,som new games tat mr ridzuan's students gave to mr ridzuan,n jus spend our time there.....i wore a cap tat mr ridzuan's students gave.....the cap is nice...i realli lik it...but its not my gift anywayyyyyyy.....at abt 12.30,the whole class,mr ridzuan and me,who was wearing the cap,went to the jetty....haha....we walked 4 abt 30 mins...haha...the jetty was sooooooo far......when we reached the jetty,there were veri few pple except som pple fishing.....we put down the mat Ser kun brought and then jus sit down....me and jerica were looking at the scenery and we started singing....haha.....we sang wu dig at first...and i started to show off my skills in singing....haha....jerica said my jia ying sounded lik jay chou.....haha......i wa soooooooo happpyy tat somebody complemented my singing......then we sang tong hua n i used guang liang style....she say i sang veri welll...i felt so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..........haha.........i sang wai puo and used jay chou style....haha...she praised again.....the feeling is damn gd.....yoooo...then we played bridge.jerica n lay koon were aving gil's talks .pam and ridzuan weere oso toking among themselves.btw....ridzuan was having a crush on one of the gils in my class...,P******.....hahhaha.....guessssssss!then we stayed on until 4am and were abt to go home when we saw a fire burning a shop....i tinkkkkkkk....haha...we wanted to call the fire engine but apparently,jerica gang has called...haha.....mins later,the fire engine and the police camee........n they cordoned off the area.....they loooked so serious yet so coollll...after 15 mins of watching the show,we went off and took the long way back to the chalet as the main gate was locked.....haha.....when we went back to the chalet,kah hwee wanted to play bridge and jerica wanted to sleep...haha.....soon,ridzuan,pam,lay koon,me,min yuen and shu ying went to look at the sun rise.....i climbed thru the main gate to the outside while the rest took the long way...haha...so cowardly.......then after waiting 4 them LIK 20 mins,min yuen called me tat they have reached the place and tel me to get there...i forgot the direction n thus asked her 4 the directions......after seaching 4 40 mins,,,i stil cant get to the place.....!then i found out tat she have me the wrong directions!!!!!!!!!!!i was initially veri pissed offf........but then its not purposely anyway...so when i saw her and she kept apologizing to me.....i jus said its alright...haha.we saw the sunrise and its damn nice....although we cant c the sun...haha......then we saw a dead sea anemone wif starfish on it....min yuen,me and shu yingspent 30 mins getting the sea anomone back to the sea.....its damn tedious...haha......but we had a sense of satisfaction..haha.....then,when we went back everibody were sleeping.......i was so tempted tat i oso slept after washing my shoes......yo...after 9am,we went back ,leaving ridzuan behind...we went to eat mac....and then went home sweet homeee.....

2005-05-28T20:00:00.001-07:00

today is a normal day 4 me....i stayed at home and jus slacked....slacked...slackedddd.........haha....besides doing som physics revision....measurements techniques n physical quantities,i oso practise on my aan jing....i mus get e feeling in....i mus....haha...i oso practise cannon in d 2 get a better hand in it...in e afternoon,i watched tv san jian ke in channel u....there was a chapter whereby a man wanted to find the motive of a girl who was dating wif him...in the end he found out tat e gil loved money so much tat she put money on top of everytink else...incliding relationships...WAT A SAD WORLD.....
At nite,i had my dinner and then watched 10mins of indian movie in the vassatam central....haha....my mother scolded me 4 wasting electricity.....haha.....then...i jus shouted at my brother 4 using my hp secretly....i wa so irritated.....WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hated pple who use my hp without my knowledge...idiotttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-28T05:33:00.000-07:00

one of my fav pic

thursday blues

2005-05-26T10:30:00.000-07:00

today is a good and a bad day 4 me....why?4 e good tink first....hmmm...i got 2 play badminton 2day...haha...sounds weird...but 2 me its lik a luxury....cos since coming 2 aj,i haven play a decent sport already...haha....oso i managed 2 survived PE!haha.....aj PE is hell...so i found it an achievement tat i actually survived it....

Bad tink?hmmmm...i jus got back my econs test...sign...its so saddening 2 c e score....oh my god.....haha....why is econs becoming so difficult now.....sian........Besides,e chem test is oso quite depressing......ai yo.........everytink doesn't seems 2 go rite 4 me.....nvr mind.....2morrow is Fri..haha.....i m going 2 wear pyjamus 2 school....haha....4 be yourself day lah........hope 2morrow would be a better day 4 me..........

The depressing aj

2005-05-22T19:30:00.001-07:00

i jus dont noe why aj is so depressing........everytink i do jus dont seem 2 workk..........signnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!But i m not going to resign 2 fateeeeeeeeee...........not ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-22T05:07:00.000-07:00

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